The lost rendezvous

For the one to whom
I've lied the most, whom
I've irritated the most....
It's another irritation
on your way....

"Ab humari beech kahin na kahin kuch tho eisa hain ki main tumhe pareshani de sakoo"
( now between you and me, somewhere, something is there where I can irritate you the most)





I think that things are getting more difficult day by day, for me (of course) and for you too... I hope about me, i feel it's okay, coz' I'm, by now, well acquainted with such situations in every walks of life. but i feel quite embarrassed when i see you in such situations. A sense of guilt surfaces my conscience when i feel that for maintaining a relationship. which is even unknown of its own existence, you're troubling yourself so much.

you know, as I'm going on with this epistle of mine, I'm getting more confident.... about myself and about you.. may the almighty bless us with enough strength and sense to judge the right thing, to find the right path and to carve out a justifiable and never to repent decision about ourselves.

Any relationship between two, whatsoever it may be, has to be nourished by both of 'em working together with a proper reciprocation for each others thoughts. And I'm quite sure, by now, that nothing of such kind is possible for us. In such a situation, it's better to turn it gracefully towards a better direction and leave it. I'm sure you're able to make out the sense.

you know, I have learnt one thing in life that everything is possible and every deed is within your reach if you feel whatever you are going to do id right and you see only the good part of it. you might be doing it for yourself or for someone else.
imagine listening to Jagjit singh....

Many a times I remember your idea about our school (hum ache tho school acha) (if we are good school is good) such simple and easy way to be optimistic.
I've tried to be the same way since then... so far i think I'm successful..
thanks for such valuables you have gifted with me unknowingly... for good..





So from now on you're free from any kind of obligations towards me now...Especially after the incident, I'm quite sure about it. you think all the aspects and decide. A decision which is within your limits of circumstances, a commitment which is justifiable to your conscience and which you can be loyal to.
Think clearly and tell that should we turn @this point of life. you have been framed in my mind in such a way that I'm sure by now that you're the only person who can give me a proper advice in this regard.I've been thinking about discussing with many but couldn't. I'd be glad if we could talk about it, but I dont think we could. Ans at the 11th hour it become still impossible...

Hope we're lucky enough for not blaming each other in retrospect... touch wood?....




PS: I sneaked into my hubby's dairy he he he took these out... liked it so much.. howdy feel?

Friend

When we first met
We were strangers
Fought like odds and ends
There was a bond
Which made us closer?
Things were different
In the beginning
But that is not the love
We have for each other
People find us funny
But that is what we are
Bound to have a relationship
Not letting the strings loose
What made us so close??

It is tough to explain
When I shed my tears
It hurts u
When I laugh out
You give me the background
Like the sea gets their tune
When the waves have their fun
Will they stay closer??
Will we have our last breathe??

I have my fingers crossed
To let my fear vanish
The rhythmic beats of heart
Gives me a fear of dried leaves
Never to have a life again
When they are sprouted
They leave the hopes behind
A fall along with the nature's tricks;
Is that what called circle of life?

Nevertheless, had hope for life with u
In the same way a good pal
Nothing more or less
But lending u r shoulder
To my sorrows
To lend your heart
When I am rejoiced
To always be with my side
When I move along
Long way of life.....

my counted days

As I counted the days of my death
I could feel that I am getting closer,
The way heart beats
In the rhythmic way of practiced singer;
I got perplexed of all those things
That happened through out my life
The days are counted and I know that
My end is near…….
The series of sins, I have done to all
They will never forgive me for all I did
What I wanted now is the touch of love
However, that was diminished by all my sins
I could see the darkness near
I am now an intrepid soul
I could see my fellow beings
Enjoying my departure
They always misjudged me
As I was always placid
I could see my mother in full grace
She will be abject if I go
How can I thank her for this life?
The beautiful feeling she gave to me
The fondled touch, the rejoice I felt
The touch of love
The time is nearing I had my filling
However, it was too late for me to reach her
I was entangled to my way back
Could see my hearse waiting
My time has come
I am on my way to grave
I heard a holler
I could see the crying face waving me good-bye
Before I could, say was held back by the death.

Miam heart

My life full of thorns
It had hurt me
I couldn’t react to it
I bowed my head for it
It gave me lot of burdens
I had to take it
Though it was so heavy
I am the person who should carry
All these on my shoulders
Coz I was only who went
And took it for myself.

There isn’t anyone to be blamed
As I feel ashamed
Still I am on this earth
With a heavy heart
Waiting for a shoulder to cry on
To let my feelings down
But no one in this world
Who understands me?
They think that I am wrong
But when they blame
I feel the beats that
I gave me to my love
That makes me feel rejected
I cannot get myself protected
Under this evil thinking
I had to share everything near
To my fear, I had to shower my tear

Still no hope in me
Dreaming for a new person
Who beholds everything?
Light my life with love
Enlightens with dreams
Will that day come?

My lover who beholds me tight
Until my last breath
I want his shoulders to cry on
I am becoming a maudlin
That was the blame by others
Nevertheless, I do not feel the same
Measure of love to life;
I have a pessimistic nature to my doings
I predicted that the ingrate
Who disturbed me?
Will lead a joyful life

love

The very first day I met you,
I was shaken by your looks
The way you care
The troubles you took for me
Every night I hope and pray
That you will come my way
When you take me away
Far away with you
To the land of dreams
Is love a selfish emotion?
Makes me feel fall around you
In the loneliness of my nuptial chamber
You stood like a tender flower
And with quivering petals
Whispered gently into my ears “ I LOVE YOU”
For you hold me close, kissed me deeply
Make me feel high
Never let me down, hold me tight
How limited my existence
Has become since I met you
My day begins thoughts about you
And nights are added with your dreams
The night moving happily about
My heart like a moon
Surrounds with the dreams
You understand the language of my eyes
Oh! Dear darling I really can’t live without you.

tears

The drop of tears
Which let you down
What a crazy world
You are facing
Which makes you feel down
Where there is no one to take care
No one to talk to
All alone in this world
To enjoy the happy day by all yourself.

you

I never wanted the stars
Never shot for the moon
I like them where they are
All I wanted was you
So baby don’t run away
Don’t make me stay
All I wanted was you.

Hurts a lot

Everyone hurts others a lot
That will make them cry a lot
They mock others
While they forget to look at themselves
They advise them and make it clear
Than being themselves clearer
The evil mind encourage them to disturb
That will make them discomfort
When they try to mock you
Never let them over you
It will always go on & on
Till the end of mankind

i know a face

I know a face, a lovely face
As full of beauty, as of grace;
A face of pleasure, ever bright
In utter darkness, it gives light
A face that itself is a joy
To have seen it, I am a lucky girl
But I have a joy that few others
The lovely woman is my mother.

my husband

The day I am going to meet him
With my mouth full of hyms
I shall pray to god to give me as god as him.

Then I’ll be flying in the air
With a great desire
That god has give me everywhere
I shall love him as my eyes
I shall hate him as my heart
I shall kiss him as in my thoughts
I shall hug with all my love.

Oh! I’ll be glad to wait so
For the day yet to come
To shower all my love
To the only person in this world
That is my loving husband.

On what to write

Yesterday in the night
When I wanted to write
With a mind I had a fight
On what to write
For hours and hours I thought & sought
But nothing came to light
On what to write

As the time is near
I had a fear
And my friend should hear
That even with my tear
Nothing came to light
On what to write

The Sun

When I woke up this morning
I found a ray of light
Shining through my window
To chase away the night...

I tried to wrap it up to send
The warmth and light to you...
But boxes do not hold sunshine
So this wish will have to do:

May the sun shine on your morning
And brighten every day,
May warmth and sunshine fill your life
And chase your cares away

me...

i was basically interested in dancing and started in the age of 1 yr.. did u hear that? I enjoyed the steps as well as the mythological stories behind it.. I started my dancing class from very tender age.. and a professional help was added a bit later.. i can dance with any kinda of music.. once when was in college.. the competitions was pretty tough.. i was in bharathnatyam, mohiniyattam, cinematic dance..etc.. for everything i bagged 1st as well as 2nd places.. but only folk dance i didnt do.. so friends were behind me to go in for it.. i told them that didnt practice everything would go for a six.. who is there to listen... they played one song and told me that it is about female infanticide.. after the very moment i was on the stage.. the song started... i just heard it there and danced... oh my god... even i was stunned... i was really mind blowing... everyone gave standing ovation.. i bagged all rounder award.. all my friends were crying and was yelling out my name... i was in a shock didnt know what to do...i joined hands with my friends and went to the stage to tell the audience that because of my friends i am awarded here as all rounder...

i still cherish those good old memories... the confidence that they had in me...they believed that i would do my best....
thanks to my friends.. and the teacher.. who taught me dancing...
i salute all...

GIRLS

Courtship violence (if the couple are from different castes, religion or strata, the male and at times even female faces death, beating and ostracization)

• Sexual abuse
• Rape
• Sexual harassment
• Forced prostitution

Exploitations

MEDIA:- unwanted channels mislead the children. As they come from an Indian family they have a concept about life, love & marriage. The serials, advertisement & soaps will make the children confused. They will not know how to co-relate with the matter. Their ignorance may turn fatal.

Example: -
As once her mother told Prachi what pregnancy was. Her mother Rupa told about the bees & the flower. Prachi was very good at studies. She was in a co-ed school. Life was going smooth believing what her mother says until & unless she met Rahul the 12th STD boy. He always wanted to be friendly with Prachi as all his classmates do have a girl friend. Rahul had thought that relationship is like a cinema where Salman Khan woes the heroine and has fun with her. Rahul & Prachi’s relationship grew very strong. Neither of them knows that, they were infatuated. As all the students from the class went for a tour Rahul & Prachi also joined them. They got sometime for themselves. They indulged in physical. Prachi, without her knowledge became pregnant.

Now who is to be blamed? Rahul, Prachi or her mother Rupa?

I will say Rupa as she could have explained to her what was it all about. May be she could have saved Prachi. And second thing I say is the school. Why don’t they educate the children not only academically but moral rules and ethics of life?
A teacher has a major role in educating the children on the aspects of life and the realities.. As she would be the right person to educate the children,make them understand what is life?

11 things in our life

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is more painful is to love someone and never find the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone who means a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone- but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks; they can deceive. Don't go for wealth; even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream; go where you want to go; be what you want to be, because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put you in the other's shoes. If you feel that it hurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife; a cruel word may wreck a life; a timely word may level stress; a loving word may heal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die, you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.


CAN WE FOLLOW THIS?

WELL ALL THE BEST

Waiting

How long should I wait to reach my destination?
The roads are so high and filled with thorns!
Will I get a hand to help me out?
They are laughing strangers who tend to help me;
But why did they laugh at me?
Are they trying to console or trying to help me out?
How long should I hold my hand?
Waiting for the days to come and behold me,
The stars do shine and give us the hope to live in this world
Will they shine till the end of the day or the world?
Hoping for the best to happen in our life:

this poem was selected internationally...
dedicated to Dilip

DEATH

What do I have to say about it? We are waiting for the day to come so that we can finish all the work and lead to the way to eternity. Why have to wait? Have anyone thought about it? No! That would be the answer I know it. But one day we will be on our way back from where we came. Do we know where do we go after our last breathe? There is no one in this world who can predict about what is going to happen to us after we part from this world. May be that they give us a wrong idea that we will go to the lap of the almighty. He who took care of us thru out our life. But think about such a person who had taken care of us? Don’t you think that is too much for us to take? We can’t even think about it right?

I know that we die once and will be born once too. But giving all the mythologies is sheer waste to me who don’t even think about yesterdays. People are very scared about what will happen after they do all the mistakes. I always wonder that if there was someone above all of us why don’t he take all the corrupted people from this beautiful earth and give us a good life to lead? Wishes never come true, that is always there that they are being ignored like hell. Those who dare and do all the shit around are living happily, I know that they will definitely repent one day for doing all that which have had hurt others. But don’t you think that it will be too late for them to feel guilty? They consider themselves as someone who is perfectionist. But will they know that there is something wrong somewhere?

Big talks are what happening all around, what do they all talk about? Do they think that what they talk can be done practically? Now I know that people will brand me as the woman who is going against the almighty. But to be very precise about what I have told above, I am not against anyone’s personal belief but please don’t drag me to it. Why you always wanted a follower? Why don’t you stop what you preach? This what happens all around in this world? There is no one in this big world who is right in every aspect. Can you show anyone to me so that I can change my stupid thinking? No you can’t, I know that you will have all sort of answers for that. But I won’t be getting what I seek for that is the truth.

We always lie to safe guard lot of things. Have your ever thought that why we lie? Nobody must have got any kind of idea for what, why & when we lie or might have lied? People have a concept that how we are able to get along this far after lying so much. But they never know why this happened. We all think that there is someone up there to guard us and will surely punish those who do anything against humanity. Do you think that is rubbish? If you do or get something you should get result at the earliest. Than waiting for years to get things done as well as leading a happy life, after you think that you had enough and wish for death. Then you get punished is the ridiculous thing to happen ever in the life.

After you reading this message will come to a conclusion that I talk rubbish or is long from the topic. Yes may be that I got diverted but still I’ll be back to the statement that life is what you lead and decide. There is no one in this world to decide for you other than yourself. After reading this please do give me a picture about what exactly is going through your mind.

Dare to dream

DREAM IS WHAT EVERYONE SHOULD DO,
TRY TO MAKE IT COME TRUE,
GIVE IT YOUR BEST SHOT,
AND SEE YOU’RE NOT TIED TO A KNOT.
YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT’S NEXT TO COME,
PLS. DECIDE WHAT YOU WANNA BECOME.
SINGER, BUSINESSMAN, DOCTOR, OR ENGINEER,
DO SOMETHING WITHOUT A TEAR,
SUCCESS IS NOT A DESTINATION….IT’S A JOURNEY,
DON’T THINK LIFE IS A BOWL OF CLEAN CURRY.

MY AIM IS FAME,
WHICH IS TO EARN A NAME,
PEOPLE MUST LOOK UP TO ME,
NOT WITH ANGER BUT GLEE,
I SHOULD HAVE A PLACE IN THEIR HEART,
AND YES….I MUST NEVER HURT ! ! !

TALK ABOUT FAME,
THINK OF THE GREAT’S NAME,
JORDAN, SHAH RUKH, SAMPRAS AND SACHIN,
THEIR POSTERS ARE NEVER CHUCKED TO THE BIN,
HAVE THEY COMMITED ANY SIN ? ? ?
NO WAY, THEY ALWAYS WIN ! ! !


IF YOU’VE MISTARGETED YOUR AIM,
PLS. REMEMBER NEVER BLAME ,
LEARN FROM YOUR MISTAKES,
THAT’S WHAT A GREAT MAN ALWAYS TAKES.

THIS ALL MIGHT SOUND A REPITION,
PLS. UNDERSTAND IT REQUIRES DETERMINATION,
ALONG WITH DEDICATION AND DISCIPLINE,
AND YES….DON’T DARE HURT A PIN !!!

Anger

There once was a little boy who had a bad temper. His Father gave him a bag of nails and told him that every time he lost his temper, he must hammer a nail into the back of the fence.

The first day the boy had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as he learned to control his anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. He discovered it was easier to hold his temper than to drive those nails in the fence.... Finally the day came when the boy didn't lose his temper at all. He told his father about it and the father suggested that the boy now pull out one nail for each day that he was able to hold his temper The days passed and the young boy was finally able to tell his father that all the nails were gone.

The father took his son by the hand and led him to the fence. He said,” You have done well, my son, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one.

You can put a knife in a man and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say I'm sorry, the wound is still there. A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one.

Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share words of praise and they always want to open their hearts to us."

PLEASE FORGIVE ME IF I HAVE EVER LEFT A HOLE IN YOUR FENCE. I KNOW I HAVE, SO PLS FORGIVE ME FOR IT.

Show your friends how much you care. Send this to everyone you consider a FRIEND, even if it means sending it back to the person who sent it to you. If it comes back to you, then you'll know you have a circle of friends.

YOU ARE MY FRIEND AND I AM HONORED!!